i looked 
as always
to the immense hilltop sky
 and saw a bruising
the word that hurts as you speak it
 but i looked longer,
past the sad colors
 and watched the sunset
take charge and play the clouds
 and even through the sadness
in my heart
 and this
 and as i returned, this.
an old friend from my early days here
who had huge kindness in his heart,
 todd, has passed. 
we will all miss him.